*** <demilo> has joined 460.83.702.93 <demilo> this computer is really old <demilo> it doesn't even have anything i can plug a tablet into <demilo>why did they even give me this thing?
yeah im with emi. we were staying by the mountain but we had to leave because the fog rolled. it's just kind of hanging there now, it feels like something bar is gonna happen.
No, he didn't. And he'll only attack again if you speak in error of Elias. He's been exposed to his influence too long much like some Fog God followers. I'm not surprised they're utilizing the same tactic, but the fact the headache only fades in the arcade and I assume Dyster, who's really causing the headaches?
i dont know whats causing it but being close to the mountain helps too. or it did before the fog rolled in, at least. being at the base of the mountain makes the headache go away almost completey
i wasnt sure whether it was protecting us from punishment or if it punishing us from going too far from it. do you really think the gods were doing it/
and well try to be safe. we made it back to the aprtment but ive got a bad feeling about whatevers going on.
[There's a long pause - maybe five or ten minutes - before she sends this next message.]
he was trying to get me to follow hi m into an alley. he said there was an arcade down there but i dindt know him and i didnt want to go. he said something about the fourth god and i told him i didnt want to follow his stupid god.
was this my fault/ iw asnt triying to make him mad i jsut wanted him to leave me alone
i didnt know hed do that. i didnt know hed [It takes her a second before she can actually type it out. It feels so strange to say, and even typing it out she can feel her breath catch in her throat.] kill me.
It's not your fault Rin. From talking to him, he was taken aback by his own actions. Though, if he was lying, he would be one of the few people I know who can make themselves cry on cue.
[She doesn't know why Naomi's being so sympathetic toward the guy who took her life. She had thought Naomi's always been the person to protect her, Rin had thought that she'd have been furious.
Or... at least be on her side.]
im glad he feels bad. i dont think i'll ever forget what he did to me.
[Another pause, not as long this time. Rin knows exactly what she wants to say, for once, it just takes her a moment to decide whether or not she wants to say it.]
[One thing to learn: never mistake her actions for sympathy.]
Not at all. It's the first response for most people; in fact, several people intend on finding him, and making him pay for what he's done. However, that isn't going to change what's happened.
[Sorry Naomi. Rin's just... Of all the things that have happened to her in this awful, shitty place... Of all the times she's been transformed, or attacked or stolen from... even counting the time she was crushed into a new form by a mountain and left to freeze, this has got to have been the most traumatic experience of her entire life.
Yes, I should use my medical knowledge to intimidate people in this place and then make them scared to come for me when they require help. I already accidentally did that with you, I don't need to do that on purpose.
I understand you're angry, and probably assume I don't care right now, but I'm the last person who should be permitted to carry out any sort of revenge. The moment I do, I'll end up leaving someone bleeding out on a web in the middle of the forest.
[She almost halfway did that, but Mugen still works around here.]
How am I on his side? Again, what good would it be were I another angry voice threatening him? Undoubtedly, someone is going to attack him, maybe even kill him for revenge. And then he's going to come back, and someone else might repeat. Is that helping anyone? Is it helping you? Right now, if you had the ability to kill him, you probably would, but what will that do Rin?
No. I only permitted him to leave because others sought to serve justice. Should he repeat this, I may turn them over to the Lawbringers. That, or keep him here and punish him myself. I'm still not sure about that group.
It takes time. Killing him would be easier, but death is superficial. As you did with me, you have to make sure he understands you'll never forgive him for what he's done.
You have to ultimately decide what you want to do with him.
i cant do this on my own naomi. i need people i can trust to help me when i need it and not just emi. i need other people too. so im choosing to trust you again, okay/
I understand, and as it is, I cannot guarantee that I won't hurt you again whether physically, emotionally, mentality, or verbally as part of the nature of this place. I can only promise I will try not to harm you again of my own volition.
[ That is probably the least satisfying answer she could've given, but Rin understands. This place takes away choice a lot more often than anyone really likes to think about.]
is that a thing i can do/ i mean the people on the network get really attached to their gods they dont like it when people say anything bad about them even when there true.
is that something that would get me attacked again/
>>CLACKERS has posted an AUDIO MESSAGE. If you wish to listen, type LISTEN01.
[ The message begins abruptly - something sharp smacking down on the mouthpiece of the headset, and then rubbing briefly. Whatever it is pulls away to leave a moment of dead air as Joseph assesses the thing to assure that it's recording. ]
... all right, there we go. [ Said quietly, under breath, because he's still not entirely sure how to work this thing. Distant, but a little louder; ] Well! Colour me interested. I do have my workaround, though this thing is still a little... difficult, I suppose, to work. It's just fun to rile that sort up.
[ Queue another few minutes of clumsy pawing, plastic impact, and fur rubbing on the mouthpiece of the recording device as he tries to push the stop button, before it actually ends. ]
>>CLACKERS has posted an AUDIO MESSAGE. If you wish to listen, type LISTEN02.
[ You might want to hold the headset away from your ear while he smacks at his own with the brunt of his paw. A moment of silence, a sharp inhale, and then - ]
In the sense that I could have just turned this thing on and spoken directly at him, yes. It did work him into quite the lather, though.
I don't suppose that it could hurt to learn! What is this trick that you have?
well idk if id say i have one big trick but i dont have arms at all so i have a lot of practice typing in other ways
i can teach you how to type with your feet if they arent paws too or i do this thing where i type with a pencil in my mouth and tap the keys like that. thats what im doing right now or we could work together on your paws if you want and figure out a trick to typing with them too
i went to a school for kids with disabilities for a long time and theres pretty much always some kind of workaround if you cant do things the way everyone else does the trick is just figuring out how to go about it
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<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-01 09:05 pm (UTC)Will you be alright?
<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-01 10:30 pm (UTC)and i dont know
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-01 10:33 pm (UTC)You're with Emi again, correct?
<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-01 10:44 pm (UTC)do you think he's going to attack me again/
yeah im with emi. we were staying by the mountain but we had to leave because the fog rolled. it's just kind of hanging there now, it feels like something bar is gonna happen.
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-01 11:18 pm (UTC)I see. Try to stay safe both of you.
<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-02 12:03 am (UTC)i dont know whats causing it but being close to the mountain helps too. or it did before the fog rolled in, at least. being at the base of the mountain makes the headache go away almost completey
i wasnt sure whether it was protecting us from punishment or if it punishing us from going too far from it. do you really think the gods were doing it/
and well try to be safe. we made it back to the aprtment but ive got a bad feeling about whatevers going on.
[There's a long pause - maybe five or ten minutes - before she sends this next message.]
did you hurt him/
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-02 12:14 am (UTC)I see. It only makes sense why you would linger there then. As for the cause, I believe so. None of my medicine works to treat it.
Good.
[She thought it might be over, but there's another message from Rin.]
No, I didn't.
<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-02 12:25 am (UTC)he was trying to get me to follow hi m into an alley. he said there was an arcade down there but i dindt know him and i didnt want to go. he said something about the fourth god and i told him i didnt want to follow his stupid god.
was this my fault/ iw asnt triying to make him mad i jsut wanted him to leave me alone
i didnt know hed do that. i didnt know hed [It takes her a second before she can actually type it out. It feels so strange to say, and even typing it out she can feel her breath catch in her throat.] kill me.
how was i supposed to know/
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-02 12:46 am (UTC)<demilo> 1/2
Date: 2015-11-02 01:04 am (UTC)[She doesn't know why Naomi's being so sympathetic toward the guy who took her life. She had thought Naomi's always been the person to protect her, Rin had thought that she'd have been furious.
Or... at least be on her side.]
im glad he feels bad.
i dont think i'll ever forget what he did to me.
[Another pause, not as long this time. Rin knows exactly what she wants to say, for once, it just takes her a moment to decide whether or not she wants to say it.]
i wish you had hurt him.
<demilo> 2/2
Date: 2015-11-02 01:05 am (UTC)im sorry
does that make me a bad person/
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-02 01:10 am (UTC)Not at all. It's the first response for most people; in fact, several people intend on finding him, and making him pay for what he's done. However, that isn't going to change what's happened.
<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-02 03:11 am (UTC)[Sorry Naomi. Rin's just... Of all the things that have happened to her in this awful, shitty place... Of all the times she's been transformed, or attacked or stolen from... even counting the time she was crushed into a new form by a mountain and left to freeze, this has got to have been the most traumatic experience of her entire life.
And it feels like Naomi doesn't care at all.]
i thought you of all people would be one of them.
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-02 03:18 am (UTC)I understand you're angry, and probably assume I don't care right now, but I'm the last person who should be permitted to carry out any sort of revenge. The moment I do, I'll end up leaving someone bleeding out on a web in the middle of the forest.
[She almost halfway did that, but Mugen still works around here.]
<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-02 04:40 am (UTC)werent you mad. do you know what he did to me//
you just talked to him and let him go. just like that/
i just dont understand how you can be on his side after what happened.
[She's really gonna feel bad for saying this later, but this freshly-traumatized version of Rin doesn't give a damn about that now.]
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-02 04:47 am (UTC)<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-02 05:11 am (UTC)i dont know.
i dont even know if itd make me feel better
[A long pause. An important question comes to mind, and it takes Rin a moment to articulate how she wants to say it.]
so everyone should just let get away with it then/
no justice/
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-02 05:24 am (UTC)<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-02 06:52 am (UTC)how do i get it for what he did if you dont want me to kill him
[Not that she's sure she could kill him, even if she wanted to. Or that she wants to be the sort of person who kills people for crossing them.]
how do i stop feeling this way
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-02 10:15 pm (UTC)You have to ultimately decide what you want to do with him.
<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-02 10:22 pm (UTC)i want it to have never happened, but i cant get that from him.
[A pause.]
i didnt say i would never forgive you.
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-03 02:22 am (UTC)[... What?]
What do you mean? I attacked you.
<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-03 02:58 am (UTC)but you also saved me. and it was mostly the plants, right/
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-03 06:09 am (UTC)<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-03 06:16 am (UTC)i forgive you though.
i dont think i was ever not going to forgive you. i was just scared of you for a while.
<demilo> 2/2
Date: 2015-11-03 06:22 am (UTC)that snot true. for a while i thought i was never going to forgive you for it.
but things change. especially in this place.
my point is that i forgive you.
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-03 06:57 am (UTC)Well, thank you. I'll have to exercise more care with my decisions in the future.
<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-03 07:07 am (UTC)for now i think.
pls do.
i cant do this on my own naomi.
i need people i can trust to help me when i need it
and not just emi. i need other people too.
so im choosing to trust you again, okay/
please dont hurt me again
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-03 09:12 pm (UTC)<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-03 10:16 pm (UTC)okay.
i guess thats an alright answer
i promise the same to you, then
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-03 11:30 pm (UTC)<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-04 06:15 am (UTC)not that im planning to or anything. i just said i dont want to hurt you.
but you know how this place is. would you be mad/
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-04 06:26 am (UTC)Now, if the individual attacking me did so logically and unaided by instinct, I think I would have a right to be angry.
<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-06 08:09 pm (UTC)id be if somebody did that to you too tbh
what was his name/
i dont even know what do with his name but i feel like i should ask
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-06 10:30 pm (UTC)<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-07 01:54 am (UTC)ill remember his name.
do you think hes gonna hurt anyone else/
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-07 01:56 am (UTC)<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-07 02:50 am (UTC)<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-07 03:22 am (UTC)<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-07 03:29 am (UTC)i mean the people on the network get really attached to their gods they dont like it when people say anything bad about them
even when there true.
is that something that would get me attacked again/
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-07 05:47 am (UTC)[Delivering news like this kind of comes with the job.]
<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-07 05:59 am (UTC)im sorry to ask, i dont want you to get attacked to...
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-07 04:47 pm (UTC)<demilo>
Date: 2015-11-07 04:52 pm (UTC)be safe
<Weaver>
Date: 2015-11-07 08:55 pm (UTC)<clackers> audio
Date: 2015-11-12 08:04 pm (UTC)[ The message begins abruptly - something sharp smacking down on the mouthpiece of the headset, and then rubbing briefly. Whatever it is pulls away to leave a moment of dead air as Joseph assesses the thing to assure that it's recording. ]
... all right, there we go. [ Said quietly, under breath, because he's still not entirely sure how to work this thing. Distant, but a little louder; ] Well! Colour me interested. I do have my workaround, though this thing is still a little... difficult, I suppose, to work. It's just fun to rile that sort up.
[ Queue another few minutes of clumsy pawing, plastic impact, and fur rubbing on the mouthpiece of the recording device as he tries to push the stop button, before it actually ends. ]
<demilo> oh shit i missed this, sorry!
Date: 2015-11-29 09:12 am (UTC)i can still show you a thing or to about typing without hands tho if you want. im pretty fast at it.
<clackers> its cool!!!
Date: 2015-12-01 04:29 am (UTC)[ You might want to hold the headset away from your ear while he smacks at his own with the brunt of his paw. A moment of silence, a sharp inhale, and then - ]
In the sense that I could have just turned this thing on and spoken directly at him, yes. It did work him into quite the lather, though.
I don't suppose that it could hurt to learn! What is this trick that you have?
<demilo>
Date: 2015-12-01 05:02 am (UTC)i can teach you how to type with your feet if they arent paws too
or i do this thing where i type with a pencil in my mouth and tap the keys like that. thats what im doing right now
or we could work together on your paws if you want and figure out a trick to typing with them too
i went to a school for kids with disabilities for a long time and theres pretty much always some kind of workaround if you cant do things the way everyone else does
the trick is just figuring out how to go about it